don't plan the plan if you can't follow through

For some reason, it seems like everyone I know has been having some sort of relationship trouble. My friend is in what seems to be a really one sided relationship. Talking to her today, it seemed like she was being supportive in every way for her boyfriend, but when it was time for him to be supportive of her, he bailed.

Even as I talked to her today and tried to give advice, I'll admit that inside, I gave a sigh of relief that my relationship didn't have any of these troubles. We're the best couple. We don't have fights.

And the irony of it is that not 30 minutes later, we had a spat. Over almost the same issue. Humbling.

I always thought that I was a good, supportive boyfriend. But today Annie made me realize that while I might be supportive for some things, I'm not good enough at being considerate or supportive for other, more important issues. Being at her sorority events or dance performances isn't enough. What I need to do is be better at comforting her, be more appreciative of when she comforts me, and I need to show her that I really do want to spend time with her. That whenever I'm with her I feel so..fulfilled when I'm with her, and that I want to be as fulfilling for her. That during the day, when I'm not with her, I feel a little emptier, and not nearly as happy. That even though I mess up so often, I really do care about her and that I want to make her as happy as she makes me.

But actions speak louder than words, and I guess there's been a lack of action on my part.

I promised her that I'd try to be more considerate and supportive, that we'll do more things she wants to do, and that I'll be more enthusiastic and eager for her.

But trying is useless. Only doing counts.

Wanted: Depth of constitution to do as I say and say what I mean.