Ambition

If a man holds no ambition, he suffers unknowingly.

If a man holds ambitions, he suffers knowingly, but very slowly.

end of finals

In about 12 hours, I will be officially done with sophomore year. It's been a rocky road, and I've come to realize that except for brief moments of time, I'm mostly miserable at this great institution of knowledge. Very few things at this place make me happy. But at the same time, I've learned alot.

Things I've done/learned/experienced this year:
1) Been awesome.
2) Met someone awesome :)
3) Went ice skating.
4) Booty-gyrated.
5) Went to Filthy Gorgeous.
6) Got into Operation DEEP, and am going to Tibet this summer!
7) Worked at an elementary school and loved the kindergartners.
8) Decided to never teach kindergarten (if I become a teacher.)
9) Been awesome.
10) Went to a hip-hop showcase.
11) Came to know a bunch of really fun people I normally would never have hung out with.
12) Being a hipster is fun.
13) Being a drunk hipster and losing your accessories (which, by the way, are borrowed) is not as fun.
14) Waking Life is one freaky film. Mind-blowing (especially if you're on illegal substances) but..freaky.
15) Went to a marching band party.
16) Threw a glass bottle into the gorge and then ran because I thought the cops were coming.
17) I am addicted to BJJ/grappling.
18) Question everything, and think beyond limits set by tradition/upbringing/religion.
19) I hate social psychology.
20) Psychology has taken over my life (I find myself constantly questioning if I'm committing ____ bias/fallacy/error. I can't even take a piss without wondering about social facilitation. It sucks.)
21) Confidence is sexy.
22) Stand up for yourself, because no one else will.
23) The normless thesis-- bad is the norm, good is the exception.
24) I hate Cornell.
25) Some people at Cornell are fucking stupid.
26) Learned to rap. In Chinese.
27) Got a 69 on my Chinese final.
28) I'm awesome.
29) White pants.
30) I have some kind of attention deficit disorder.
31) I hate my laptop.
32) If your penis says one thing and your brain says another...listen to your brain. Sometimes.
33) Friends don't let drunk friends throw butterfly knives.
34) Cried.
35) Went to a bar.
36) Actually made friends in one of my classes (gasp.)
37) Signed a lease for an apartment next semester.
38) Got hit in the testicles.
39) Went to a formal.
40) Learned just how awesome Dragon Ball Z Abridged, Yugioh Abridged, and The Emperor's New Groove is.
41) I have arthritic symptoms in my left knee.
42) Apologized profusely.
43) Assaulted someone.
44) Pooped. Furiously.
45) Picked up bad habits.
46) Lost good habits.
47) Apple bong.
48) O'd.
49) Chinese doctors routinely harvest organs from prisoners and Falun Gong practitioners without consent.
50) Bubble tea is delicious.
51) Too much BJJ = neck gets too thick = cannot button collar on dress shirt
52) Got ripped.
53) Got fat.
54) Salvia.
55) I hate doing psychology research.
56) Math professor with ridiculously thick accent.
57) Lived on a rotisserie chicken for four days.
58) Been awesome.
59) Had sushi.

...to be continued.

summer.

I'm avoiding studying so...here's my summer plans!

May- Get out of school, get my shit unpacked at home, maybe go to Six Flags?
June- My dad wants to send me to visit Taiwan for a bit. Maybe see the World Expo in Shanghai?
July- If I do go to Taiwan/Shanghai/Beijing, go directly to Chengdu --> Tibet right after?
August- Come back from Tibet, go to school right after.

So I'm going to be teaching English in Tibet! Pretty exciting :)